40… Finally!

I woke up, what is now yesterday morning, dreading the entire day. What I didn’t know was that it was going to be one of the single best days of my whole life. See I turned 40. To me this number scared me to no end and I couldn’t, and still can’t, quite put my finger…

40… Almost 

So I’m turning 40. I know right, this hot mess doesn’t look a day over 38 and a half! But it’s eating at me.  I remember when I turned 25 and thinking “Oh my God, my life is almost half done!”, now my life may very well actually be half done!  It’s a crisis of sorts….

Happy Anniversary IIH

It started with a spot. I tried to wipe it away, but for some reason my eyes would not give me that spot back. I held my head to the side so I could see in some sort of focus, but it was difficult. I had a headache, but this wasn’t a normal headache. This headache…

Positivity 

Staying positive isn’t easy. Lately I’ve been faced with a slue of crazy incidents and people that have been testing my ‘stay positive’ attitude. It’s been so hard. It started when we got the email that we didn’t get house #2, you see initially I didn’t believe that there was any damage at the house because…

Stress Hangover 

I woke up yesterday at 5pm. Some might say I’m lucky to be able to sleep all day and not have anyone bother me. No kids coming in inquiring about what’s for lunch, or dinner for that matter. No worries about who needs to walk the dog. Endi even made sure I had my meds…

Brain Surgery #6

Recently I had a major seizure that lasted over five minutes. Scary, I know. Not really for me at the time because I have no recollection of it, even to this day. I don’t remember feeling like it was going to happen, like I usually do, or it happening at all. My mother and daughter were…

Moving and being Pre Judged 

As some of our close friends know we are looking for a new home. Sadly the owners of our house decided to sell while I was in the hospital and it kind of gave us a bit of a shock. Immediately after opening my eyes from brain surgery I started our hunt for a new place…

An open letter to my Anesthesiologist 

Every single day you walk into work and treat people who are sick. Most of the people you see once and they are fixed. You put them to sleep, a quiet slumber. It’s so quick on the patient end. It feels like a blink. It’s not restful. We wake up disoriented and very confused, in…

Some ramblings on recent and past deaths 

Last week I went to yet another funeral. It was for my great Aunt. She was 95, had lived a full life, filled with tons of love of her family. She was my grandmothers sister and my memories of her have always been fond ones. She was a loving lady. She was buried with her…

Louis (Louie)

Today is the day we as a family have been dreading. Our eight and a half year old cat Louis, or Louie as we like to call him, (he also goes by LuLu, Bibs and PittyPitty. And no, I have no clue where some of those names came from) is being put down today. Needless…

My writing

I’ve been told on occasion that I should write more or that I am “well written”. Usually this comes from my random Facebook posts, updating my friends and people I’ve met through my life (and some I haven’t) about my condition, Intracranial Hypertension, and how I’m doing at that particular time. Usually I ramble on…

My Husband

Tonight I went over to my friends house. She was there that fateful night back in August, 2005, when I re-met him. Maybe I should explain more. In July, 1993, I was just a shy 16 year old, hanging out with my girlfriends, who suggested that we go to this new pool hall, that was…